Christmas Special

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year all!!!
How was your Christmas day? Was it good?
Wish you all the best.. :)
By the way, today I wanna share my Christmas day with all of you.. 
In the Christmas day, people usually spend it with gather with their whole family.
I actually not supposed to celebrate it.
But my boyfriend does.. and I have the best CHRISTMAS ever!!!
hahhaa.

What were we doing in Christmas? 
He already spend Christmas earlier with his family if i was not mistaken 21-23 december.
And for 25th of December, he asked me to spend Christmas with him.
And i accepted it. We went to Singaraja, his hometown. Started at 7 in the morning, he picked me up at home.
We went there by his motorcycle.
The route is Dps - Bedugul - Singaraja..
We stopped in some places to took pictures.. all pictures are taken by his mobile phone by setting timer itself to take pictures of us.. haha
And we took many great pictures.

This is the place where we first stopped, rest area.
The view behind us was so great.. :)

These are photos when we arrived at the lake.. :)
I remember clearly that the weather at that time was so perfect!
There are 5 photos which was taken by the cameramen we paid, really great pictures (sorry, I can't show you all here)
Haha, and I showed to my mom and my mom said, we were like taking photos for pre-wed.. How awesome is that!! hahaa

This two photos were taken at the garden of a hotel still in bedugul area.. :)
And were edited by him.. :) They're so good, aren't they?
hahahaa.. I agree when my mother said that we're like taking photos for our pre-wed..
And this is the photos of our last stopped..
While drinking coffee, of course we were taking some  photos..

Then...
We continued our trip to singarajaaaa... :)


When we arrived at his home, there'is no one there..
His father and mother were going to church..
We were having our lunch, took some rest and went to his grandfather's house..
The house is not too far from his main home..
His grandfather and grandmother are living together in a house,
His grandparents were so kind to me.. Of course to everyone..
I feel so accepted there and so happy...
Ah.. they have some durian trees, chocolate trees and many other fruits..
That's my first time saw the chocolates trees and eat the fruit!
Hahaha
After spending about 1 hour there, we decided to go back to the house...

When we arrived at the home, his parents already arrived home..
I saw his family are very kind people, no doubt he is also so kind..
His family thought him how to do something by giving the example..
Hm.. i feel so warm.. Beside him also his family..
Sadly, i couldn't talk much in front of his family.. :'(

Before we went back to denpasar, we decided to go to Banjar..
A hot water baths ( Banjar Hot Springs, located at Banjar Village about 45 minutes from Singaraja).. Sooooo refreshing...!!! :D

Then, we went back to Denpasar...
The funny thing happened when in the way, we face the rain and..
We only brought 1 rain coat.. One for upper body and one pants..
You know, after a long debate, we decided to use a half for him and a half for me...
How hilarious is that?!!!

Arrived at home at 11.30 PM. 
 
hahaha.. WHAT A SPECIAL CHRISTMAS!!! :D. 

WHAT A GREAT DAY!!!!

I Don't Know How She Does It

I just watched "I Don't Know How She Does It"
That movie is really really inspired me a lot!!

It's about a working mother, Kate who loves her job really much.
And also loves her family really much too.
She has 2 gorgeous kids, one daughter and one son.
Yup, she is a working mother.

Here is the thing in real life,
If you were married, one side only (in this case a man)
working in a house will hardly enough to cover all of the bills.
Also, if the woman was used to work and already have a carreer,
it would be hard for both of them to let off the job.
Whether from woman nor man side.
So, in most marriage now a days, both side will work.
And the worst case is happening.
This is what the story is tell you, but in this case, woman side.

Because world judgement that woman was born to raise the kids.
Taking care of 'em and also the housework and all of the stuff.
And man will only working to get some funds for the house.
When a working mother having a really great carreer,
people tend to think that she is not a great mother and the marriage will be disturb.

Honestly, it's really sad to watch this movie.
The most sadly part is when i saw that the kids (her kids) miss their mother so much.
And also their mom, miss 'em soo much.
But, because of the work required Kate to do the over work,
she hardly see her child and barely keep her promise.

It's happen when her carreer is in the very top position.
Where she has to do meeting with his very-handsome and nice boss.
Let say, she almost having a crash (fall in love) with her boss.
But the hard part she can't let the job off because it will affect her whole career.
So, she finish her job until the end.
 And this let the job screwed her marriage life for a moment.

Until a moment she had a fight with her husband.
(Luckily, the fight happens when the job is done.)
Then she starts to think over again and decided,
not to let her job screw her marriage life ever again!
The marriage is good, the work s good also..
You can't have the best part in two things.
But you can let your self happy, if you let go one thing and focus on
the one that gives you the most happiness..

How about the boss?
Although the boss almost tell her that he love her,
she quickly refused it and go meet her lovely family.
His boss ended up dating with Kate's best friend.
And Kate's husband..
will be the one and only.. THe one that she love..
It's a happy ending story, though some parts make me re-thinking about the life that i wants..
I means, the after-married life that i want.

Of source i will having babies, kids...
And to be honest, i am a little ambitious with me career also.
But after i watched this movie..
I think that i have to search a job that not require me to come to he office.
At least i have some years (before i finally having kids)
to search for that kind of job.
So, i won't have a case like in the movie..
I don't want my kids are crying because see her mother go to work..
Everyday and always wait their mom come back from work just to read them night story..
I want to be able to see my kids grow, holds their hands..
And be the first that run to them if they fell.
AMIN..

The most important part is i dont want to let my husband down..
I want to be a perfect wife to him..
I won't let my self get a crash with anyone!
One good line i adopted and developed from the movie...


Its for my lovely husband

" You'll always be the most handsome man in my life

I will always love your smile, only yours

And i will always love the scent of your sweat

 Forever.. I LOVE YOU"

I already texted him this lines, by the way. 

So, it's ok to share it to you now.. :)

Ok, It's 3 past 6 in Bali..

I supposed to sleep at this time..

So, thanks for reading it...

Have a nice dream.. ^^

Oppa chukkae (Ha Dong Hoon & Byul Marriage)

A big events happen, an event that i was waiting for about 2 months from now..
Ha Dong Hoon Marriage!!
Haha.. I am looking forward to see their wedding photos.

If you are the korean lovers,
You will know the famous and most exciting reality show Running Man.
Ha Dong Hoon (Haha) is one member of running man.
The rumors aboutt the marriage already appeared since if i not mistaken 2-3 months ago.
Many running man episodes were talking about haha's marriage. 
For the one who are waiting for that event, here it these..
Finaly..

CONGRATULATIONS!!
These are the pre-wedding photos..
Unique concepts, no doubt! since Haha have a very great sense of humor,.. :)
I wish that Byul can laugh everyday after she married haha-oppa..
^^

I also read in allkpop.com when they come to one program (MBC music)
haha stated that they want to have 12 sons and 13 daughters..
Hahaha.. Cant u believe that?

BTW, oppa chukkae..
I am looking forward to see the rest of your wedding photos..

Kim Joong Kook oppa, you have to catch up with haha soon!!
^^

Aku, habis

Semakin aku keras mencoba..
Maka semakin hati ini menderita..
Tapi disini aku menangis sendiri..
Tanpa ada 'dia' yang menopangku..

Ketika aku mencoba menguatkan hati..
Selalu ia akan mendorongku untuk jatuh lagi..
Dan ketika aku lelah, sangat lelah..
Aku akan berhenti mencoba bangun,
berhenti tersenyum riang..
Dan menunggu..

Menunggu ketika tangannya meraih tanganku..
Berharap ia menunjukkan betapa besar rasa sayang dan cintanya..
Berharap dia merangkuhku..
Dan menggenggap tanganku..
Berlari bersamaku lagi..

Aku akan tetap disini..
Tertunduk, lemah tak berdaya.. Tak bertenaga..
Terpangku, menunggu waktu..
Jika sampai saatnya nanti..
Ia tidak juga mengulurkan tangannya kepadaku..

Mungkin, hati ini akan lelah berharap.
Mungkin, hati ini akan mati, terkunci selamanya..
Dan mungkin tak akan lagi terbuka untuk kehangatan tangannya..
Mungkin..

Pada saat itu..
Aku tak tau siapa yg akan menangis..
Siapa yang akan menyesal..
Tapi kali ini, aku telah habis akal, habis tenaga..

Masakan Padang

Ever love a kind of food?
Masakan padang is a kind of food which most of the Indonesian people love so much.
The taste is so rich, with much of ingredients and most likely spicy.

Why i made this post of masakan padang's food? Because i love 'em? No..
I love my parent's food the most. So why?
Because this is my nostalgic food..

One day, he was going back to Bali, from Jakarta.
And i lived in Cikarang, which is far away from Jakarta (It's take 2 hours to get there)
And surprisingly my mother has a business trip to Jakarta, so i went there.

Before he went back to Bali, he spend his time at his sister's.
And it's located in Gading.
One day, i planned to go there (to her sister's apartment) while he was staying there.
I took the bus way from Jakarta (kuningan) to Jakarta (Gading)
That was my first time, went alone by bus way.
I had never go alone by bus way before.
Luckily i arrived there save.. :)

The moment that i remembered the most is when we eat masakan padang
together at her sister's.
ah capek ah. ngomong inggris!
Jadi tuh, di hari itu kita beli masakan padang.
Nah aku bukan orang yang suka banget gtu sama masakan padang.
Pernah nyoba sekali dua kali gtu.
Tapi gak pernah dateng lagi ke restorant padang.

Akhirnya, kita makan si masakan padang itu berdua.
 Kebetulan hari itu, kakak, suaminya, dan anaknya sedang gak dirumah.
Jadi deh yang di rumah cuman kita.
Walaupun gak pake candle, tapi pas kita makan, berasa sweeeettt banget.
Sweet = unyu, bukan sweeet manis yah. karna masakan padang tau kan pedesnya?

Dia suapin aku, seperti biasa,..
Aku? ngapain? Aku ngcup bibir nya dia..
Hahaha
Emang aneh banget yah, kita yg bibirnya sama2 belepotan (aku lebih belepotan sih)
dengan kuah, bumbu masakan padang, pas makan eh kecup2an..
Hehe..
Aku emang selalu seneng di suapin sama dia, itu aja udah terasa sweett banget.
Apalagi pagi kecup2 gtu... hehhe..

Jadilah si masakan padang, masakan favoritku kalo lagi kanggeeeeeeeeeennn banget sama dia.
Tapi rasanya jelas beda.
Gak seenak kalo tangannya dia nyuapin aku.
Gak seenak kalo kita makannya sambil kecup2an..
Hehehe..

Semoga aku dan dia bisa have that moment again..
AMIN...

Waterblow

Deburan ombak melaju kencang diterpa angin
seakan bergelung ingin menembus kokohnya karang.
Air laut yang jernih nan kuat senantiasa mengikis bebatuan
yang tampak berdiri semakin lama semakin rapuh itu.
Membentuk ukiran elok di sepanjang bentangan
karang-karang.

Ketika karang dengan beraninya menahan deburan
sang ombak, ombak itupun beriak membentuk
pemandangan yang sangat indah..

Ketika banyak orang menyebut Bali, maka yang terlintas
adalah pantai yang banyak dipuji orang akan keelokannya,
Kuta, Sanur hingga Jimbaran semua telah dijamah dan menjadi
kubjungan wisata populer yang menjadi favorit bahkan ikon Bali.
Tapi bagaimana dengan waterblow?
Pernahkah anda mengunjunginya?

 Waterblow adalah salah satu tempat kunjungan wisata di Bali
yang kerap kali digunakan sebagai latar dari pre-wedding picture.

 Berlokasi di nusa dua (sekitar 45 menit-1jam dari Denpasar), object
wisata ini menyuguhkan 3 latar yang indah.
Pertama adalah waterblownya yang terkenal. 
Seperti yang saya telah gambarkan tadi, waterblow tersebut merupakan 
kumpulan karang yang terhantam ombak.
Di beberapa point, lengkungan di tempat ini, ombaknya akan sangat besar
sehingga akan menampilkan background yang indah ketika anda mengcapturenya
di bagian belakang ataupun samping anda.

Yang kedua adalah rerumputan. Rerumputan di daerah waterblow
sangat hijau. Konsep foto yang biasa dipakai adalah family picnic.
Ataupun bersepeda.
Rerumputan di daerah ini memiliki textur dengan ketinggian yang
beragam, mulai dari perbukitan, sampai rerumputan yang datar.
 

Yang terakhir adalah suasana pantai.
Pantai di nusa dua masih terbilang bersih dan terawat
jika dibandingkan dengan pantai di daerah sanur ataupun kuta.
Pantai di daerah ini berpasir putih (seingat saya)
Walaupun latar pantai ini tidak terlalu populer untuk
fotografi, anda bisa bercengkrama bersama keluarga anda,
bersepeda, sekedar melihat pemandangan pun akan sangat menyenangkan.

Jadi? Ke Bali? Semppatkan diri anda untuk menikmati beragam 
pemandangan yang disuguhkan oleh lokasi ini. :)

Happy holiday ^^

Get Ready for Holiday - Trip to Bali

Haiii it me (yaialah, masak di blog gue yg nulis orang lain -.-'' LOL)

Ok, i just read my boyfriend's (my future husband) blog.. It's about Bali..
He likes blogging too,. And his blog is a way better than mine..
Hehe, but always, mine is more cute.. :P

Ok, anyway, holiday's coming! It's November already guys!
Have you prepared your pack purse and wallet?
Coz, you will really really need it when December comes.!
 and I am really exciting!!!
I can't wait any longer to spend my holiday.
So, wanna know where i'll spend my holiday?
haha

Every 3 months i have at least 2 weeks holiday from my university.
Coz, my semesters here are so short. Too short, honestly.
I am at the fourth semester now, and next holiday will become my 4th holiday trip.
Ok, where did i go for the last 3 holidays? To Bali.
My home sweet home. Yeah i was born in Bali 19 years ago.

In that beautiful island. This is one of the beaches view in Bali.
It's supposed to be in Jimbaran, or around there.

Ok, every holiday i went back to Bali,
While my friends spend their time in Bandung,
Or maybe Singapore, or other countries.
why i prefer to go to Bali? (besides my boyfriend's there)
Because i realized there are so many places to go in Bali.
19 years living there, i feel i just spend my time at home.
Going no where was such a waste.

Since, me and my boyfriend really loved traveling, he showed me the vacation objects,
that i never went before.
We go there together and spend our sweet time and make sweet memories.
He posted our last vacation on his blog. 
It's actually not our vacation, but how we spend our time together. hehe

Then, in the next holiday we planned to go to some places.
1. A very nice village called penglipuran

Yeah, this is the picture of penglipuran village.
I heard from my boyfriend's story,it's a very clean village (if he said very clean, its mean very very very clean)
I really really want to see the house and the environment so close.
I'll went go there with my boyfriend actually.
Haha. Since i have a long long time in the way.
I can hug his back longer.. haha. (~^.^)~

2. Harvest durian!
Hahaaha. this will be the most exciting part in holiday.
His grandfather have a durian farm. And the durians are so tasty.
O mi god i am drooling by just saying it.. huhuhuu..

His durians are so damn tasty!!!! Yummy!
Beside that, i come to his village, of course i'll meet my future family (AMIN AMIN AMIN)
HAHHA.. I get nervous by just saying it.. :)
How i have to behave, whethet they'll like me or not. 
All these things fill in my brain.. huuahhh..
He said his family is so kind. I believe it. Because he him self is so kind..
He must have a very kind family. LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!!


3. Waterboom!!!!
I cannot wait any longer to visit waterboom.
So, here is the thing. I used to go there like once a year.
But since i was 3rd grade in high school, i've never visit it anymore (as i remembered.)
So i heard there is a new slide. And every time i went there, i always enjoy the slides. ALWAYS!

so i can't wait to visit it again!!!!
I definitely have to take pictures there!!!!!

Ehm... I planned to go there with my brother and sister. 
But i think it's not a good idea, since i have no budget at all.. 
Plus they can ruin my romantic time.. hahha :P Feel sorry for that..

So, have a plan to spend your holidays at???
If, no, come to Bali then!! HAHAHHAHA

Renunganku malam ini :)

Aku selalu bersyukur kepada Tuhan,
Karna Dia udah ngirimin 1 malaikatnya buat aku..

Seseorang pernah bilang..
"Hidup udah ditakdirin untuk berpasang-pasangan"
Aku selalu senyum setiap inget itu..
Seperti apa pasangan kita nanti?
Apa seseorang yang selalu kita inginkan dalam bayangan kita?
Hahaha

Aku ngerasa udah nemuin padangan hidupku..
Bukan seseorang yang hadir dalam bayanganku sebelumnya..
Bukan seseorang yang terduga..

Seseorang itu datang, ketika aku siap..
Ketika aku membutuhkan dia..
Seseorang itu datang, bukan membawa harta, tapi kasih..
Seseorang itu datang membawakan bahu untuk bersandar..
Membawakan tangan untuk menopang..
Punggung untuk berteduh..

Seseorang itu menunjukkan jalan yg benar..
Aku mengutip dari sebuah film
"Don't find a better man, but find a man who can make you a better woman"
I've found him..
Dia yang menjadikan aku adalah aku yang sekarang..
Iya yang mengajarkan aku arti kejujuran..
Arti kasih sayang, dan cinta dengan cara yang tidak terlupakan..


Seseorang itu mungkin bukan yang terbaik..
Tapi orang itu menjadikannya lebih baik..
Orang itu, adalah orang terbaik didalam hidupnya..
Orang itu yang menunjukkan sinar disetiap harinya..
Orang itu yang bisa membuatnya tersenyum pada saat terburuk..
Orang itu yang selalu memikirkanmu, dan jadi rumah untuknya..
Melindunginya, menjaganya dan merawatnya..
Seseorang itu adalah pasangan hidupnya.. 
Seseorang itu gak akan bisa dipisahkan oleh seseorang ini.. bagaimanapun..
Karena hati ini hanya untuknya..

Maka disini, aku akan berusaha menjadi pasangan hidup yang sempurna, untuk seseorang itu..
AMIN

05.00

Hai there... :)
Udah lama banget rasanya aku gak nulis..
Hari ini aku seneng.. senenga banget.. Karena akhirnya aku bisa nulis di blog lagi..
Oia. Kemaren aku sempet vacuum dari nulisku bukan karna aku mau..
Tapi karna gak ada koneksi internet yg memadai.. huhuhu..
Inget-inget itu jadi sedih lagi..
But anyway, sekarang koneksinya udah bisa aku pake lagi.. :)

Hari ini tgl 1 November 2012.. 4.49 AM waktu bali..
Waaa,,,.. aku bangun pagi banget yah?
Haha, honestly, aku gak tidur sama sekali..
Itu dia yang aku mau tulis hari ini. Tentang kegilaanku..

Oia, dari 30 menit yg lalu entah kenapa koneksi di hp ku mendadak aneh..
Gak ada jaringan dan gak ada sinyal sama sekali..
Hm.. padahal aku bener-bener mau sms orang yg aku paling sayangin..

So, jadi hari ini aku gak tidur sama sekali karena..
Mungkin ini akan kedengeran sedikit bodoh.. Hehe..
Tapi aku mau keep omonganku..
Aku mau jadi orang yg bisa jaga omongan, apapun itu..
Seseorang kecewa karena aku susah banget jaga omongan yg aku buat sendiri..
He.. Seseorang itu selalu merasa kecewa..
Jadi aku mau berubah.. Sedikit-sedikit..

Jadi, tadi malem, dia (Mr Rightku) perrgi ke sebuah acara..
Acara gak jelas.. haha. Bersama seorang temannya..
Karena itu acara didelegasiin oleh kantornya..
Ya, aku pikir walaupun dia gak suka, tapi harus dateng juga..
Acaranya sebenernya sampe jam 11 malem..
Selama acara, bahkan sebelum acara..
Dia udah kesel sama aku karna aku gak makan nasi..
Yah,.. aku bilang sama dia aku mau diet, jadi belakangan ini aku gak makan nasi.
Tapi ngeganti nasi pake pisang goreng, and he was mad about that.

Akhirnya, pulang dari acara itu dia kelaperan..
Aku tau, dia pasti kelaperan,..
Tapi since aku gak makan malem, dia memutuskan untuk membiarkan lapernya menggerogoti dia..
Sampe akhirnya dia sms aku..
Ketika dia mau tidur..
Hm.. 

Aku paling gak bisa denger dia sakit, laper, pusing, apapun..
Rasa sakitnya, 2 kali lipat aku rasain disini.. he.
Bukan bermaksud lebay..
Akhirnya malem ini aku gak tidur, bentuk protesku sama dia..
Aku tau dia bakal marah besok karna hari ini aku gak tidur sama sekali..

Aku cuman mau bilang sama dia..

"Sakit yg vie rasain gak ada yg sebanding sama sakitnya dek..

Walaupun ini cuman masalah makan.. Plis, makan buat vie.

Sehat buat vie.. Malem ini vie mikirin lagi..

Kesalahan-kesalahan vie..

Dan vie gak mau ngulanginnya lagi"

Aku harap besok pagi dia liat tulisan ini..
Pasti kesel.. :P bisa ngebayangin mukanya..

Gimana rasanya diciumin selama tidur?
Hehe.. Gimana rasanya ketika tidur ada sseorang yang terjaga 
untuk terus doain semoga tidur nyenyak,..
Orang ini.. cuman mau sayang sehat..
Gimanapun caranya..

Doa Malam Tadi

Suamiku, pacarku sayang sedari tadi pagi sangat bahagia..
Sepertinya karena sms yg kukirimkan padanya tadi malam..
Sampai tadi dia memintaku untuk mempostkannya ke blog ini..
Maaf ya cintaku, sampe minta gtu. :P


Here it is..

" Vie baru selesai berdoa cintaku..

Met bobok suamiku, Bobok yg nyenyak yah..

MUACH. Vie selalu doain dek..

VIE SAYANG BANGET SAMA DEK, SAYANGG BANGEET

Semoga kita bisa sama-sama selamanya.

Vie pengen sayang jadi suaminya vie, pertama, terakhir, selamanya.. AMIN"

Yah.. kira2 begitulah isi smsnya.. :)

Sebenarnya isinya sama ama sms2 kemaren2nya..

Kita biasa mengucap selamat malam, met bbok, one another..

Itu sms dari aku.. Aku sendiri lebih suka sma smsnya dia.. 

"Makasi udah buat dek bahagia gini.

Met malem sayang, met bbok yah..

Bobok yg nyenyak, pake selimutnya, peluk spongi, dek pasti

peluk vie dari belakang.. Dek cium kening vie dulu, MUACH

MUACH.. Dek sayang banget sama vie GBU

I LOVE YOU MY WIFE.. 

YOU WILL BE THE LAST FOR ME.."

Fill with our honest wish every night..

That is our wish..

Jadi deh..

Pagi2 sayangku bangun dari tidur nyenyaknya..

Seperti tersenyum mengingat sms ini..

Hehe. Aku juga seneng banget tau kalo dia tersenyum karena smsku..

Maaf karna udah bilang lupa..

Vie lupa apa keseluruhan isi smsnya..

Tapi kata2 itu, emang bener..

Kata2 itu dari hati nya vie, tertanem di hatinya vie..

Makasi juga karna sms nya sayang..
Vie ngerasa smsnya sayang malem tadi yg sweet banget..
Vie nyimpen sms nya syg yg tadi malem..
Aku paling bahagia, bahagia banget, suka banget dia bilang bakal peluk aku
cium kening aku..
I feel save and warm all night long..
And i slept with a smile in my face... :)
Thank you my only husband.. 

 Morning sayangku..

Wish you have a very bright and nice day..!!

Jangan marah2 terus, nanti cepet keriput.. :P

Gadis kecil itu...

Dan dia takkan pernah kembali berbalik menyapamu..
Dan dia takkan pernah kembali untuk menangis dihadapanmu..
Dia takkan menjadi gadis itu lagi..


Gadis itu sangat merindukan, menyayangi bahkan mencintaimu..
Tapi gadis itu akan tetap berjalan, walau tertatih..
Mencoba tidak menolehkan kepalanya kebelakang..
Walaupun ia tau, ini hanya raganya, 
karena hati, harapan impiannya tertinggal dibelakang..
Gadis itu mencoba tegar..
Ia akan baik-baik saja.. Sendiri..
Dia, sang gadis kecilmu, dia bulan purnama, dia ratumu..
Tapi dia tidak lagi dia...


Tapi pada suatu saat..
Ketika kau tak tahan dan mencoba membalikkan badan dan mencari gadismu..
Dia akan tetap disana. diujung jalan..
Mengenangmu, tetap mencintaimu seperti dahulu..
Tapi ketika kau ingin menjangkaunya, tanganmu takkan cukup panjang..


Karena gadis itu benar-benar terluka, benar-benar habis tenaga..
Tapi ia akan tetap tersenyum, sampai akhir hayatnya nanti... :)

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Why you have to say goodbye if we can star all over again?

Why you have to say goodbye with you heart's loving me deeply..

Why you have to lock the door of forgiveness,

When someone so sick of changing herself a way better?

If there is a hope, don't run from it..

If there's a hope, don't throw it away..

If there is a love, give me a chance..

My heart is so sick seeing you wave your hands but saying i love you..

How i could draw my path with no you..

My life is yours..

If there is no more you, how can i live my life? 

Sarangnya tak Menginginkannya...

Kemana merpati akan mengepakkan sayapnya jika bukan kembali ke sarangnya?
Tak taukah kau seekor merpati akan selalu kembali ke sarangnya bagaimanapun sesuatu ingin membuangnya?
Tapi bagaimana jika sarangnya tak menginginkannya? 


Ketika otak dan perasaan berselisih paham.. Air matapun mengalir deras. Emosi bertemu dengan perasaan sakit dalam dada, di dalam sebuah organ yg bernama hati. Hati itu pun akan mengirimkan sebuah reaksi kepada otak, mengisyaratkan bahwa ia sedang sakit.. Keluarkah butiran butiran air itu.. Makin deras makin deras..

Manusia diciptakan untuk bahagia,.. Apa itu bahagia? Apa ketika melihat orang yg kau sayang bahagia? MUNAFIK. Itu adalah kemunafikan yg dibuat oleh pujangga cinta. Faktanya, ketika kau bersama orang2 yg kau sayang, membuat memory2 indah.. Melupakan penatnya dunia untuk sejenak, mungkin selamanya.. Itulah kebahagiaan..

Mengapa kemunafikkan diciptakan? Ketika kau tak mengerti perasaan orang lain, juga perasaan diri sendiri.. Ketika kau mencoba bergelut melawan perasaan dan menginginkan otakmu yg menjadi pemenang. Disanalah kemunafikan tercipta. Kebahagiaan mencipta dirinya sendiri. Hingga kini, merpati ini percaya bahwa kebahagiaan datang ketika hati sedang rela, tenang, juga ikhlas.. Ketika kau bersama orang yg kau sayang tapi hatimu tidak tenang, rela ataupun ikhlas, akankah kebahagiaan tercipta?

Sebaliknya, ketika hatimu telah rela, tenang dan ikhlas namun kau tidak bersama orang yg kau sayang akankah kebahagiaanmu akan tercipta? Apa hanya kemunafikkan yg dikarang oleh otak belaka?

Kini otakku sedang tak sinkron.. Bahkan aku tak tau apa yg kuinginkan, bagaimana hidupku kelak.. Semua berwarna abu.. Hahaha.. Satu waktu dalam hidupku, aku merasakan pelangi muncul di pagi hari, matahari sangat hangat tenang dan nyaman di siang hari, bahkan bulan tenang menyapa di malam hari.. Pada masanya akupun sangat bahagia.. Tak heran banyak orang yg menginginkan mesin waktu doraemon. Untuk memutar waktu bahagianya kembali. HAHAHA. Hanya cinderella,snow white dan para princess lainnya yg mempunyai kisah indah itu. Happily ever after..
Aku mulai berfikir, memang di ceritta, mereka adalah mahluk yg luar biasa baiknya. Jadi, apa manusia tak akan bisa mendapat kisah happily ever after, karena kita tidak cukup baik?

Aku menunggu kemana dibawanya kisahku oleh sang pencipta.. Apa merpati akan kembali ke sangkar nyaman, hangat indahnya? Atau terbang tak tau arah? Apakah merpati harus kembali pada sangkar yg jelas-jelas tak menginginkannya? Pertama kalinya merpati ini merasa lemah, mengepakkan sayappun akan terkalahkan oleh angin kencang.. Tidak bisakah merpati ini kembali ke sarang untuk berteduh sejenak. Merasakan kebahagiaan yg diidamkannya? Haha. Iya, sarang nya tak menginginkannya.. Hampir lupa.

11.10.2012

Is it really over?
Right here? Right now?

Although i still can't accept it. It seems the best decision for him..
I'll do everything to make him happy.
If it's the only way..
I'll not say a word..
I'll try to accept it, and deal with it..

Bye my future husband..

 I'll never forget you.. ^^

 I'll always love you..

VIEDEK FOREVER IN MY HEART..

Tuhan, jagalah dirinya... selalu.. AMIN