Doa Malam Tadi

Suamiku, pacarku sayang sedari tadi pagi sangat bahagia..
Sepertinya karena sms yg kukirimkan padanya tadi malam..
Sampai tadi dia memintaku untuk mempostkannya ke blog ini..
Maaf ya cintaku, sampe minta gtu. :P


Here it is..

" Vie baru selesai berdoa cintaku..

Met bobok suamiku, Bobok yg nyenyak yah..

MUACH. Vie selalu doain dek..

VIE SAYANG BANGET SAMA DEK, SAYANGG BANGEET

Semoga kita bisa sama-sama selamanya.

Vie pengen sayang jadi suaminya vie, pertama, terakhir, selamanya.. AMIN"

Yah.. kira2 begitulah isi smsnya.. :)

Sebenarnya isinya sama ama sms2 kemaren2nya..

Kita biasa mengucap selamat malam, met bbok, one another..

Itu sms dari aku.. Aku sendiri lebih suka sma smsnya dia.. 

"Makasi udah buat dek bahagia gini.

Met malem sayang, met bbok yah..

Bobok yg nyenyak, pake selimutnya, peluk spongi, dek pasti

peluk vie dari belakang.. Dek cium kening vie dulu, MUACH

MUACH.. Dek sayang banget sama vie GBU

I LOVE YOU MY WIFE.. 

YOU WILL BE THE LAST FOR ME.."

Fill with our honest wish every night..

That is our wish..

Jadi deh..

Pagi2 sayangku bangun dari tidur nyenyaknya..

Seperti tersenyum mengingat sms ini..

Hehe. Aku juga seneng banget tau kalo dia tersenyum karena smsku..

Maaf karna udah bilang lupa..

Vie lupa apa keseluruhan isi smsnya..

Tapi kata2 itu, emang bener..

Kata2 itu dari hati nya vie, tertanem di hatinya vie..

Makasi juga karna sms nya sayang..
Vie ngerasa smsnya sayang malem tadi yg sweet banget..
Vie nyimpen sms nya syg yg tadi malem..
Aku paling bahagia, bahagia banget, suka banget dia bilang bakal peluk aku
cium kening aku..
I feel save and warm all night long..
And i slept with a smile in my face... :)
Thank you my only husband.. 

 Morning sayangku..

Wish you have a very bright and nice day..!!

Jangan marah2 terus, nanti cepet keriput.. :P

Gadis kecil itu...

Dan dia takkan pernah kembali berbalik menyapamu..
Dan dia takkan pernah kembali untuk menangis dihadapanmu..
Dia takkan menjadi gadis itu lagi..


Gadis itu sangat merindukan, menyayangi bahkan mencintaimu..
Tapi gadis itu akan tetap berjalan, walau tertatih..
Mencoba tidak menolehkan kepalanya kebelakang..
Walaupun ia tau, ini hanya raganya, 
karena hati, harapan impiannya tertinggal dibelakang..
Gadis itu mencoba tegar..
Ia akan baik-baik saja.. Sendiri..
Dia, sang gadis kecilmu, dia bulan purnama, dia ratumu..
Tapi dia tidak lagi dia...


Tapi pada suatu saat..
Ketika kau tak tahan dan mencoba membalikkan badan dan mencari gadismu..
Dia akan tetap disana. diujung jalan..
Mengenangmu, tetap mencintaimu seperti dahulu..
Tapi ketika kau ingin menjangkaunya, tanganmu takkan cukup panjang..


Karena gadis itu benar-benar terluka, benar-benar habis tenaga..
Tapi ia akan tetap tersenyum, sampai akhir hayatnya nanti... :)

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Why you have to say goodbye if we can star all over again?

Why you have to say goodbye with you heart's loving me deeply..

Why you have to lock the door of forgiveness,

When someone so sick of changing herself a way better?

If there is a hope, don't run from it..

If there's a hope, don't throw it away..

If there is a love, give me a chance..

My heart is so sick seeing you wave your hands but saying i love you..

How i could draw my path with no you..

My life is yours..

If there is no more you, how can i live my life? 

Sarangnya tak Menginginkannya...

Kemana merpati akan mengepakkan sayapnya jika bukan kembali ke sarangnya?
Tak taukah kau seekor merpati akan selalu kembali ke sarangnya bagaimanapun sesuatu ingin membuangnya?
Tapi bagaimana jika sarangnya tak menginginkannya? 


Ketika otak dan perasaan berselisih paham.. Air matapun mengalir deras. Emosi bertemu dengan perasaan sakit dalam dada, di dalam sebuah organ yg bernama hati. Hati itu pun akan mengirimkan sebuah reaksi kepada otak, mengisyaratkan bahwa ia sedang sakit.. Keluarkah butiran butiran air itu.. Makin deras makin deras..

Manusia diciptakan untuk bahagia,.. Apa itu bahagia? Apa ketika melihat orang yg kau sayang bahagia? MUNAFIK. Itu adalah kemunafikan yg dibuat oleh pujangga cinta. Faktanya, ketika kau bersama orang2 yg kau sayang, membuat memory2 indah.. Melupakan penatnya dunia untuk sejenak, mungkin selamanya.. Itulah kebahagiaan..

Mengapa kemunafikkan diciptakan? Ketika kau tak mengerti perasaan orang lain, juga perasaan diri sendiri.. Ketika kau mencoba bergelut melawan perasaan dan menginginkan otakmu yg menjadi pemenang. Disanalah kemunafikan tercipta. Kebahagiaan mencipta dirinya sendiri. Hingga kini, merpati ini percaya bahwa kebahagiaan datang ketika hati sedang rela, tenang, juga ikhlas.. Ketika kau bersama orang yg kau sayang tapi hatimu tidak tenang, rela ataupun ikhlas, akankah kebahagiaan tercipta?

Sebaliknya, ketika hatimu telah rela, tenang dan ikhlas namun kau tidak bersama orang yg kau sayang akankah kebahagiaanmu akan tercipta? Apa hanya kemunafikkan yg dikarang oleh otak belaka?

Kini otakku sedang tak sinkron.. Bahkan aku tak tau apa yg kuinginkan, bagaimana hidupku kelak.. Semua berwarna abu.. Hahaha.. Satu waktu dalam hidupku, aku merasakan pelangi muncul di pagi hari, matahari sangat hangat tenang dan nyaman di siang hari, bahkan bulan tenang menyapa di malam hari.. Pada masanya akupun sangat bahagia.. Tak heran banyak orang yg menginginkan mesin waktu doraemon. Untuk memutar waktu bahagianya kembali. HAHAHA. Hanya cinderella,snow white dan para princess lainnya yg mempunyai kisah indah itu. Happily ever after..
Aku mulai berfikir, memang di ceritta, mereka adalah mahluk yg luar biasa baiknya. Jadi, apa manusia tak akan bisa mendapat kisah happily ever after, karena kita tidak cukup baik?

Aku menunggu kemana dibawanya kisahku oleh sang pencipta.. Apa merpati akan kembali ke sangkar nyaman, hangat indahnya? Atau terbang tak tau arah? Apakah merpati harus kembali pada sangkar yg jelas-jelas tak menginginkannya? Pertama kalinya merpati ini merasa lemah, mengepakkan sayappun akan terkalahkan oleh angin kencang.. Tidak bisakah merpati ini kembali ke sarang untuk berteduh sejenak. Merasakan kebahagiaan yg diidamkannya? Haha. Iya, sarang nya tak menginginkannya.. Hampir lupa.

11.10.2012

Is it really over?
Right here? Right now?

Although i still can't accept it. It seems the best decision for him..
I'll do everything to make him happy.
If it's the only way..
I'll not say a word..
I'll try to accept it, and deal with it..

Bye my future husband..

 I'll never forget you.. ^^

 I'll always love you..

VIEDEK FOREVER IN MY HEART..

Tuhan, jagalah dirinya... selalu.. AMIN

Something

THERE ARE SOMETHING I CAN NEVER FORGET..

AND THERE IS SOMETHING THAT WON'T CHANGE FOREVER, my love to you...

Way Back Into Love

Ok, here is the story..
I just watched a movie called MUSIC & LYRIC
Then i found this incredibly great song there..
Called way back into love...

Ok, why i love this song?
Cos, i am in my way back into my love..
You know, yeah i had a little problem with my boy friend..
But i am sure we're gonna fix it later.. 
This song is so inspiring me.. :)
Thanks to the film and also the song.. ^^
I've gained my strength back because of this song..
I won't lose him.. AMIN..

So, here is the lyrics,,.. And i'm on my way to search the song..
Hope i can give it to you later on..

Hugh Grand - WAY BACK INTO LOVE

(OST - Music and Lyrics)

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!


All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Ooo hooow


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.


All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!


There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation


All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Ok, i just downloaded the song and it seems right..
You can downloaded it here..

Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love

YOURS

ONE MAN (HAN NAMJA) - Kim Jong Kook

Hai...
Tonight i feel so in love..
With who? Who else?
Hahaha. Of course my only man.. :)

I remember this song.. I was watching family outing and heard this song..
I learn a little about korean language, and the title of this song is han namja..
Where in english is ONE MAN.
I was curious to find the meaning..
But oppa-ku han namja ku..
Han namjaga isso nol nomu saranghan
hehe.. Seorang pria yg cinta banget sama aku
A man who love me so much..
And me? Han yojaga isso nol nomu nomu nomu saranghan
And me? A girl who love him so much too..
Here is the lyrics..

HAN NAMJA (ONE MAN) - KIM JONG KOOK

cham orae-dwan-nabwa / i mal chocha mosaek hal mankum
 ni nunbinman bwado nol hwonhi ta anun
 ni chin-guchorom noye kurimja chorom

 nul hamkke hae-nnabwa / niga himdul-ttaena sulpul ttae
 werowo hal-ttaedo ddo ibyol alh-koso
 apahal-ttaedo ni nunmul taggajul

 han namjaga-isso nol nomu saranghan
 han namjaga isso saranghae maldo mo-tha-nun
ni gyote son nae-milmyon ggot tah-ul koriye
chasinboda agginun nol gachin naeka isso

norul utke hanuni-rochik keugonman saengga-kha-go
onje odisona norul barabogo
nol kuriwo hago ni kokchongman hanun

han namjaga-isso nol nomu saranghan
han namjaga isso saranghae maldo mo-tha-nun
ni gyote son nae-milmyon ggot tah-ul koriye
chasinboda agginun nol gachin naeka isso

chonboncchum sam-kigo wo / tto manbonchum chuseuryo bojiman
ma-rha-go shipo michilgot katunde
nol warang nan an-go shipunde

han yojaga isso iron nal morunun
sarang badumyonso sarang injuldo morunun
namankum kkok pabogatun sulpun nol tugo
I sun-gan-do nunmuri najiman haengbo-khan gol
Niga gyote itke ttaemun-iya


And here is the translate of the lyrics..
Its not a song in happy ending..
But the title.. Is so him.. hehe..

 It must've been a long time. Long enough for these words to become colorless.
 Even if I just see your eyes, I know everything,
 Like your friend, like your shadow.

We must've been together always. When you're having hard time and you are sad,
even when you're lonely. Holding onto separation a bit longer,
Even when I'm hurting to wipe away your tears..

 There's a man. Who loves you so much.
 There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
 By your side I put my hand out and at
 a path were you can always reach me
 I, who cherishes you more than myself, am with you.

 To make you laugh, I think of only that and
 When and where ever you are I'm watching you and missing you.
 And who worries of only you,

 There's a man. Who loves you so much.
 There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
 By your side I put my hand out and
 at a path were you can always reach me
 I, who cherishes you more than myeslf, am with you.
 For the thousandth time I swallow and again for ten thousandth time I try to set
 everthing straight. I want to tell you. I think I'm going to go insane but.
 I want to embrace you all at one but...

 There's a girl, who doesn't know I'm like this. 
 Who receives love but doesn't even know that it is love
 Leaving you, who is as foolish as I and sad,
 At this moment tears come but I'm happy.
 It's because you're by my side.


Tonight, i just want to hear this song..
This song.. and only this song..
I dont know how many times i've already heard this song..
But i want to hear this song all night long.. :)

Looking Good with Your Outerwear!

Hi guys..
I've been so long since the last time i posted about fashion..
Now, i come again bring something fresh for you.. ^^
Here we go..

OUTERWEAR
Outerwear is some fashion stuff look like jacket or semi formal jacket.
Outwear could make your style absolutely different..
Here it is some outerwear style i got from our lovely website LOOKBOOK! :)

I love when someone mix the masculine of the outwear with a dress.. :)

Perfect outerwear will make you look different.. ^^

Even simple, its so perfect.. ^^
I hope i could give you some inspiration..
Happy weekend.. :)

One FU*KING night

Malem ini..
Adalah salah satu malem terburukku di cikarang..
Huah...
You know? What's the name of my handphone and laptop?
"My soul" Eh? Apa hubungan nya? Malam terburuk sama hp dan leptop?

So, guys you know kan..
Me and my boyfriend is in a LDR situation..
Which means the communication is everything for us, right?
Yup! This two small lovely things (mu handphone and Leptop)
allow me to communicate with my boyfriend..
Thats why, i need 'em so much.
That's why i named them so'ul..

Ok, what's the fucking night about??
It's started a week ago when my lecturer give me assignment to do..
And the dead line? Today.
Ok, i don't mean to blame someone yah..
But really, the trouble maker is them, i mean "he" (one of my lecturer)
Then, my day become really really hectic (actually it started from yesterday)
So, i didn't have much time to send him (My boyfriend of course) text messages.
But he understand it and say many nice things EVEN nemenin aku sampe selesai buat tugas!
Kalo gak salah disana jam 2 pagi krna disini jam 1 pagi gtu baru selelsai..
Padahal dia harus kerja jam 9 pagi disana, itu berarti bangun jam 7 pagi!!
Huhuhuhu. total dia tidur cuman 5 jam!!! (Eh bener kan matematika ku?)

Yah, begitulah malam itu malam yg indah buat kita..
Masalah terjadi lagi ketika keesokan paginya aku yg hectic banget sedari pagi, kerja kelompok,
lanjut ngerjain tugas, ngacangin dia (LAGI) padahal aku janji gak ngacangin dia.. huhuu
Puncaknya pada saat hp aku mati di kelas ke2
KElas itu baru brakhir jam 5 sore which means disana jam 6 sore..
Which means, dia udah pulang kerja..
Dari siank, jam 3 atau jam 4 gtu hp ku udah mati..
SIALNYA! di kelas sama sekali gak da colokan kosong!!
Tau kan anak2 BB pasti sangat memerlukan thu colokan buat HPnya..
jasi deh aku nunggu buat jam pulang..

Sessampai nya di dorm, aku lgsung ngecharge hp ku donk..
Jengjengjeng..
Tau kesialan yg terjadi selanjutnya???
Hp aku yg baru nyala..
GAK ADA SINYAL YG TERDETEKSI!!
Parah gak? I thought hp aku donk yg salah..
Si soul aku banting2 dengan kasarnya..
tapi blm bisa juga.
Aku tukeran hp sama ellen, jadi aku pasang kartuku di BB nya dia..
masih sama..
Jadi kita (aku dan ellen) beranggapan kalo kartu SIM card aku yg rusak..
Jadilah aku pengen banget keluar bli kartu baru (agak sayang juga sih)
Eh pas mau keluar, Nia (temen aku yg lain) dateng ke kamar terus bilang kalau provider aku
emang lagi bermasalah,.. jadi semua orang yg make provider senada..
Gak bakal yg namanya dapet sinyal..
Akhirnya aku menyerahhlah..
Lupa jam brapa, akhirnya aku meminjam hp ellen buat meng sms dia..
Udah panik banget.. udah kangen banget.. udah semuanya..
(itulah yg terjadi kalo LDR, cuman bisa berhubungan pake the only hp i have, when it got broken
HANCURLAH SEMUA) huhuhuh
Sampe akhirnya jam 12 malem (disini) semuanya baru membaik, sinyal udah dapet..
Ternyata dia belum tidur jam segitu..
Aku lanjut sms dengannya..
Huhuhu

Appearently, he was mad.. And he is now..
Huhuhu..
Yaa.. doakan saja yah..
Dia bisa cepet kembali lagi.. Bisa tengil2an lagi..



WITH LOVE,..


YOUR WIFE