5.55 In Morning

5.55 AM in the morning...

Do you ever know the feel of having a really bad headache?
That what i feel right now..
I barely sleep cuz thinking about him all night long..

Where is he?
Why he can't even text me once!
Is he get enough sleep?
Is he alright?

He is having trouble with his phone.
It can't stay more that 2 hours without charging i think..
He already said it to me..
He hope me not to angry..
I am not..
Angry at all.. I concerned, i am disappointed.

Dadaku sesak..
Menangis tertahan itu jauh lebih menyakitkan..
I already told him..
I will sleep if he already told me that he is alright and he will get enough sleep..
But he is not text me even once...
How can i sleep well?

Hope he feel it and text me..
I really wish that i could get a cup of coffee to refresh me...

Red Red Red

It has been so long since the last time i take a look in lookbook.nu..

Hahahha.. Is it spring already?

Take a look what i've found there..

This is her picture. Her name's anna.

I really really love her red skirt..

Her Prada sun glasses and heels were totally amazing..!!

If you a fasion-lover, you have to take a look at there..

You will get a lot of references.. :)

Happy windowing... ^^

Dia, Segalanya.

Inilah saat dimana yg menguasai diriku bukanlah diriku lagi.
Dia menjadi air dalam hidupku, menguasai 85% dari jiwaku, otakku, tubuhku..
Tapi, apakah aku menyesal?
Tidak, malah benar2 bahagia.. Karena aku mencintainya..


Malam tadi kami bertengkar,cukup hebat..
Kami sudah menjalani hubungan ini 9bulan, dan belum pernah bertengkar sangat hebat (untunglah)
Tapi tadi malam,..
Setelah aku latihan cheers, disitulah masalah dimulai..

Didalam sebuah hubungan, pastilah ada cemburu, protektif, curiga..
That are all human nature.
Seperti dia kemarin..
Dia menanyakan "Are the boys participate also in that cheers group?"
He's a typical man who really don't like his woman being "touch" with anyone else.
And i really know it.
So, after practiced i call him. I was really afraid that he will be misunderstood.
He will be, but i prefer to call him better than just text him..
Aku bilang, iya ada cowoknya..
Tadi latihan gendong (mksudky lift up) jadi latihannya berpasangan..
And absolutely he got mad..

I know he will..
But i don't know he will be mad all night long..
We argued and argued again all night until 2 AM in the morning
Pasti memang susah banget nerimanya.
Walaupun emang cuman dalam conteks "cheerleaders"
Pasti memang susah..
Jadi aku mencoba mengertikan posisinya.
Aku bukan typical cewek yg bergaul biasa dengan laki2.
Aku tidak menyukai (bahkan) duduk berdekatan dengan laki2 lain.
Bila aku saja tidak menyukai apa yg kukerjakan kemarin, bagaimana dengan dy?
Kemarin, dy mengatakan bbrapa hal yg benar2 membuatku sakit..
Dy mengatakan akan merokok, karena kepalanya sakit..
Dr situ air mataku pecah, menetes perllahan.
Dy mengatakan tak ingin berbicara padaku lewat telepon..
Dy mengatakan kepalanya sangan sakit..
Semua membuatku menangis sangat hebat kemarin malam..
Badanku bergetar, hatiku sakit, kepalaku sakit..
I was trembling because of him..
I realize he's everything for me..
He really is .

Tapi, kembali pada ini adalah cheerleaders.
That are all about sport.
So whatever it is, It all in the context. Not more...
I need his believes.
But all he said from yesterday just 'whatever'
I can't say anything..
I wish he can understand it.
Because if he never understand..
It will hurt him, if it hurts him, it will hurt me also..
It will hurt both of us..

I wanna say..
I am really sorry..
But, i need your believes.. I need you, you're my everything..
Please stop angry with me..
Coz i don't know what to do.
I have no spirit for the day..
Keep believe in me..
Cos i love you, I really love you. And i will love you for the rest of my life..

With heart,

Yours

Taylor Swift - Ours

My newest favorite song.. :)

Elevator buttons and morning air

Stranger's silence makes me wanna take the stairs

If you were here, we'd laugh about their vacant stares

But right now, my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves

They'll judge it like they know about me and you

And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do

The jury's out, but my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves

Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me

Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles

But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine

And you'll say don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/ours-lyrics.html ]

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate if it's wrong and

Your hands are tough but they are where mine belong in

I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you

'Cause I love the gap between your teeth

And I love the riddles that you speak

And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored

'Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

And don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

But they can't take what's ours, they can't take what's ours

The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

Fashion Quotes Today

"Fashion isn't about maximal prices and low style.

But it is about minimal preices and high-end style"

_Anggi Lupitasari_

"Fashion is every piece of puzzles incorporate together

to form your IMAGE"

_Amadea Kevala_

This quote is the one i like the most....

"I don't design clothes, I design dreams"

_Designers of dreams_

Uyut hari ini

Ketika aku bilang
         "Makany ganti fotony lho! Biar gk diganggu lagi sama cewek!!"
Dan dy blg
         "Semua juga udah tau dek punya pacar"

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       (speechless)



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"ok then.. whatever!"

 

Cang Love Ci Care Ci Love Cang

Malem ini aku ngacangin dy lagi..

huhuuhu..

Merasa bersalah banget.. Gimana dy merhatiin, mikirin aku..

Tapi tadi aku gak mau dengerin dy, disuruh istirahat malah noonton..

huhhuhuhu..

Jadi deh malem2 gini keinget dy..

Tadi pas nonton "everybody can dance"

Di depanku ada pemandangan bulan yg indah banget..

Setiap ngeliat bulan purnama gtu, pasti aku kangen sama dy..

Kenapa?

Alasannya selain karna kita berdua pernah sama2 nikmatin pemandangan bulan dari rooftop.

Pas dy liat bulan pasti bilang "bulan itu kyk vie tau"

lanjutannya.. "karna permukaannya gak rata, kyk muka vie yg jerawatan"

wkwkkwk.. SABODO. yg penting dy inget aku..

Mau jeleknya kek, cantiknya kek (emg pernah cntik?)

Dy malem ini gak ada bilang met malem..

Padahal aku udah baik2 aja..

Gak tau kenapa hari ini moodku gak bisa dihancurin banget ya?

Mgkin karna lagi seneng sama semuanya..

Seneng karna sembuh, seneng karna kangen dy, seneng krna temen2..

Tapi alhasil, yah aku malah bikin dy marah.. huhuhuhu

Nah balik lagi ke topik.,,

Dy blm ada ngucapin night greeting ke aku seperti hari2 biasanya.

AKu takut dy masih belim bisa tidur.. huhuu.

Akhirnya disinilah aku.. Curhat, gak bisa tidur..

Drtd cuman dengerin curhatan room mate aku.. (namanya Mirah)

Nah, td barusan, Mirah tidur..

OL lah aku, pengen liat blog nya dy..

Posting terakhirnya doain aku biar cepet sembuh (vie udah sembuh beb :*)

Aku senyum2 sendiri liat judulnya.. "Cepet Sembuh Ci"

Tau gak "Cang" dan "Ci" itu bahasa kasar diBali..

Itu digunakan untuk menyebut "Aku" dan "Kamu" kalo di bali..

Nah masyarakat Bali gunain kata2 itu cuman buat musuh mereka atau sahabat mereka (anak muda)..

(aneh kan ya?)

Eh. kita malah make kata2 itu sebagai panggilan sayang kita..

(Entah dari kapan)

Mungkin karna gak lazim dipake juga, jadi ngerasa lucu sendiirii..

Hehehhee..

(aaaaaaaahh!!! pengen banget cubit pipi dy)

Apalagi yang terjadi hari ini yah?

Hm, selain dy marah, no others extreme things happen..

Hm.. di akhir curhatku hari ini..,

Beb..... Bebbbeeeehhh..

(lebay)

Sayangku, maaf karna udah mengacangkan dirimu hari ini..

Vie telah mendapat ganjarannya beb..

Sekarang, aku merindukanmu sanget sanget.. huhuuhuhuhu

Hm.. tp gpp, jgn bangun lagi.. bbok yg nyenyak..

Maaf banget buat tadi..

Vie treessnaaaa kapining Dek.. 

Jinjja Sarangheo..

Really really love you..

Huftt. sekarang baru vie kangen gni..

sayang yg ngacangin.. huhuhuuhuuhuuhuuuhu..

Sayang, vie kangen..

SENYUM!! :)

Most Wonderfull Days

Dari kemariinn pengen banget nyeritain pengalaman yg bener2 wonderful banget.. 

Entah kenapa, semenjak power-boosterku pergi dari sini,.. bener2 terasa lesu..

Bener2 lemah gak bertenaga..

Pergi dari sini?

Iya.. Beberapa hari yg lalu, tepat tgl 2 mei, dy sempet kesini..

Rabu, May 2 - Jumat, May 4 2012..

Dy dateng ke Jakarta untuk urusan kerjaan..

Jauh jauh hari sebelumnya, dy udah bilang sama aku..

Kalo dy bakal ke Jakarta, untuuk urusan kerjaan..

Jauh2 hari sebelumya, dy udah minta maaf..

Mgkin gak bisa ketemu, mgkin ketemu cuman sebentar..

Semenjak dy bilang gtu, aku udah mendem harapan buat ketemu dy..

Biar dy dateng kesini juga gak ada beban buat ketemu aku..

Tapi, pastilah gak bisa..

Hari itu selesainya urusan dy dan kerjaannya, dy lgsung cuss ke cikarang..

Cengkareng - Cikarang, sumpah! namanya doank yg mirip..

Itu letaknya bener2 dari barat ke timur..

Tapi, dy BENER BENER DATENG..

Maybe itu yg namanya 'the power of love' ya?

Malem itu, dy yg lagi sakit..,

Keujanan di BLOK M, desek2an di bus, isi nyasar, cuman buat ketemu aku..

Jauh2 ke Cikarang..

(Gila kan!!!) huhuuu.. Bener2 terharu banget..

Pertama kali liat dy disini bener2 pingin aku peluk.. gak pengen aku lepas.. :((

Malemnya, setelah dapet kunci kamar buat nginep kita kekamar..

Aku sama jeje (temenku) ke kamarnya dy..

Dy manjaaaaa banget malem itu.. (seneng banget ngingetnya)

Aku elus terus kepalanya..

Sampe akhirnya ngasi kecupan di pipi.. (dr dulu pingin banget ngelakuin hal itu)

Besoknya, aku ajak dy nonton nenek gayung di Lippo-Cikarang..

Yahh,,, seperti pada umumnya.,, film hantu di Indonesia gak ada yg bisa diharepin kan?

Tapi mungkin karna nontonnya bareng dy yah?

Jadi filmnya lumayan menghibur,..

Setelah itu kita maem nasi pecel bareng,, 

Jalan malem bareng.... Bener2 kenangan manisss banget..

Aku gak mau mikirin kita harus pisah sampe jumat pagi..

Hari itu.. aku bener2 gak bisa ngomong...

Gak mau bilang kata pisah lagi..

Cuman bisa nangis di kamar dy..

Cuman bisa meluk dy dan jadi cewek yg cengeng..

Sebenarnya aku gak mau nyisain beban buat dy saat dy pulang nanti..

Tapi tangisanku gak bisa ditahan sama sekali..

Maaf.. :(

Anehnya, aku bener2 lose strength banget saat dy pergi..

Gak pingin ngapa2in..

Bahkan untuk ngelangkahin kaki aja, susahnya setengah mati..

Kyknya hari itu aku emang ber2 udah tampak seperti mayat berjalan..

Hari ini,..

Tiap hari aku lewat dpn dormku.

 Ada 1 pintu yg kuliat..

E9, 1 pintu yg dy tempatin..

Entah bodoh atau apa.. pengen banget aku masuk dan liat dy disana..

(yg 1 ini aku blm pernah ceritain ke dy, takut dikira gila.. wkkwkw :P)

Aku cuman gak tau lagi..

Gimana caranya struggle dari perpisahaan sementara kita yg dateng lagi dan lagi..

Bener2 suatu hari nanti..

Aku gak mau ada kata pisah sementara atau apalah..

Pingin banget setiap hari belai rambutnya sampe dy tertidur..

Pingin banget ngeliat setiap senti mukanya dari deket..

Pingiinn banget pelukan sampe bangun keesokan harinya..

AMIN AMIN AMIN..

I know that days are coming.. Please be faster...

From the one who's missing you a lot