HOME DESIGN

When i see a home.. i see my future...

My heart need him

-11.24 PM- WITA (Waktu Indonesia Tengah)

Rasanya baru 45 menit yang lalu aku merasa kamar ini dingin. Sangat dingin sehingga aku harus menggulung tubuhku pada selimut yg sangat tebal. Tapi beberapa menit yang lalu, hawa di kamar ini rasanya tak cukup untuk membuat hatiku mendingin.

Paru-paruku rasanya menciut, sangat susah untuk mengambil nafas. Padahal seingatku aku tak mempunyai penyakit asma. Ternyata begitu besar pengaruh kesedihan pada siklus kesehatan ditubuhku.

Kesedihan ini tak bisa kuluapkan. Aku berada di ruangan berukuran 2x3 meter milik seorang temanku. Aku disini bersama 2 orang temanku. Aku bukan orang yang dapat dengan mudah mengeluarkan kesedihanku dihadapan orang lain, meskipun temanku sendiri.

Akhirnya, disinilah aku pendam tangisanku. Rasa sesak itu memukul paru2ku. Makin lama makin sesak. Rasanya sakit ketika aku paksakan untuk mengambil napas lebih dalam.

....

-11.33 PM-

Rasanya sudah sangat lama sejak terakhir kali aku mendengar suaranya. Tak pernah kubayangkan sebelumnya, ternyata mendengar suaranya membawa pengaruh besar untukku. 2 hari saja aku tak mendengar suaranya gejela kematianku rasanya mendekat. Hahaha..
Mungkin terdengar begitu lebay. Kenyataannya? lebih parah daripada itu, percayalah.

... I miss him ...

I miss his smile,
his laugh,
his smell,
his lips ...

his voice...
I miss him...

I don't know what happened,
My body act strange.
My soul and my heart extremely need him..

Like human needs air,
Like smokers needs cigarette,
Like the one who need a drugs. Addicted.

-11.54 PM-

I breath normally...
Entah nanti gimana. Entah esok pagi ketika aku meninggalkan kamar ini gimana.
Mungkin tangisanku akan meledak atau apalah...
Entah aku harus bersyukur atau malah takut akan rasa rindu berlebih ini..
Kurasa aku harus mengatakan padanya untuk menjaga hatiku dg baik.
Ternyata, hatiku sangat sangat rentan dengan segala sesuatu yg berhubungan dengannya..

"WORDS"

Meaningful words that i found in "Eclipse".
These words said by edward cullen to bella swan..
A really really meaningful part. Made me crying..

"Aku tidak akan memintamu memilih diantara kami.
Berbahagialah, dan kau bisa memiliki bagian apa saja dariku yang kau inginkan atau tidak sama sekali,
Jika itu memang lebih baik"


Hmmm... What a wonderful words.. :)

My boyfriend makes me crazy!

Secuplikan pembicaraanku dg Spongi (my spongebob's doll)

Me : Spongi, Have you ever missing someone?

Spongi : ...... *silent

Me : No? So, Don't! Coz it will hurts you a lot.

Spongi? Have you ever loving someone?

Spongi : ...... *silent

Me : No? Don't! Coz you will always think about him, like a sick person.. (like me)

But spongi, don't you fell lonely?

I'm just like an insane person talking alone last night..

Crying hard..

I've never been so worry about someone before.

hmmhhh.. I know, i'm just over-reacting. Hmm i fell really sick right now.. T.T

Korean Wave!! 2Ne1

Hai readers, my name is Novi.

And i'm crazy of them..

Hahaha, let me introduce you with them,.
They are 2ne1!!

From few days past, i've been addicted with many Korean singers.
And 2Ne1? Their songs are on the top of my list.

I love their song!
I love their beat!

I love them so much!
Haahahaa..

Want to know them more?
Let me give you their song references :

1. 2Ne1 - I'am the best.

2. 2Ne1 - Go away.

3. 2Ne1 - Can't No Body.

4. 2Ne1 - Try to Follow Me

5. 2Ne1 - It Hurts

That are just little piece of them.
They actually have many song left.
But that songs are my favorite.

Just try to listen it.

And you will fall in love with them.. ^^
Happy monday! \(^o^)/

Doa pagi ini

Kita gak bakal tau apa yg terjadi besok,

Jadi, do the best everyday.

Jangan sampe kelak, kita menyesali apa yg pernah kita perbuat..

Today, gonna be a very beautiful day..!

AMIN

_my hand made_

I made it when i was in Bali..
I forgot the date (sorry).

I went to a very-beautiful-beach with this couple.

They're my friends.. Both of them.
Their names are (vierda and sledo).

Yeah, we went to that beach (me, vierda and of course sledo).

That was their planned.. (-.-'') huhuhu, and i dont know why i should be their photographer? ?

aaakkkk.. There was me who have to make a good photoooss with my BF.. :((
huuuahhh..

But, after i saw this photo, i felt little happy (very little).
The good side is, my photos were very good.. Yaa.. i'am satisfy..
hikzz..

Yesterday I Came Back and Now I'am Leaving (again)

I do realize that i love being here so much..
Island of Gods, island of happiness, island of my hopes, island in my dream..
My love..

Now i have to leave it (again)..
Wait till 3 months later.. Till i can come back here (again)..

Why this time is harder then the first time?
hmmm..

Many memories that i've made in this 2 weeks.
Yupz, I've been here for about 2 weeks actually.
But it fells so short, too short.
TIME IS NEVER BE ENOUGH.
(why i feel my grammar is so chaos?)


Today i do realize, that i love the smell of beach so much.
I do realize how big i love the felling when i pray to the God.
I do realize how i love the smell of dupa.
I miss being here. I miss live here..

But i still have a long long way to go.
9 semesters to go, that i have spent it there..
In cikarang.. -.-''

It's too hard to leave Bali..
It's too hard to leaving my family, my friend..
Especially, my lovely boyfriend here..

TO HARD TO IMAGINE, TOMORROW THERE'S NO HIM BESIDE ME..
THERE'S NO HIM TO KISS ME, THERE'S NO HIM TO HUG ME..
AND THERE'S NO HIM TO CHEERS ME WHEN I CRY..

Let's don't imagine it! hahhaa
after this FUCKIN-3-YEARS i really want to spent the rest of my days, with him..
hohoho.. (doaken yoo)

ok, half past 9.. time to go!
See you after i arrive in cikarang.. (huft)
\(^o^)/ manse~